it's dreary outside but spirits are still bright. i have amazing news - i bought a chocolate vegan brownie that is to die for and DIDN'T FINISH THE WHOLE THING. ok, maybe this seems like a small feat to you, but i've never been known to not finish anything sugary. i feel like this is my first breakthrough! maybe next i'll conquer that darn neti pot.
while purchasing my vegan chocolate brownie during a 15-minute break at 4 i snuck online, downloaded 100 new messages, and my pulse went up. why can't i just wait until dinner break? why do i feel pulled to connecting to the outside world? i'm sure my replies and knowing what is happening in dc, et. al. can wait until they let us out to eat dinner. ahhhhh. anyone else's pulse rise when they think about what is in their in box? it's such an odd phenomenon. maybe all this meditation will help.
today we learned a new sutra: Ishwara pranidhanad va which translates to "by giving your life and identity to God, you attain the identity of God." still trying to grasp this one fully - it's about surrender and acknowledging that if your actions are enhancing the lives of others, then you are acting within the divine will.
yesterday's was very good and is a well-known sutra: Yogas Citta Vrtti Nirodhah which translates to "when you stop identifying with your thoughts, fluctuations of the mind, then there is yoga. identify with self which is samadhi, happiness, bliss, ecstacy." those darn thoughts. it's not the e-mails that are the problem. it's the anxious thoughts surrounding the e-mails, what's being missed, what's not being handled, etc.
gotta dash so i can down some greens and don some white! hope these sutras give you something to chew on. would love to hear any thoughts/insights you have on them whether they're new to you or not. let's grow together, girls. isn't that what all this (life) is about?